Those Ugly/Delicate Imperfections
Truth is I’m far from perfect, but we all have our flaws. Over the past few months I noticed a lot about myself and my unique qualities that make me who I am. Although I have my imperfections and weaknesses, those characteristics also have their strong points. This post is not about putting myself down, but a reminder that as I am constantly growing and becoming better, I don’t have to hate/tear myself down during the process. Over time, these characteristics have become more apparent in my life, and despite my strong dislike for them, this post is not about that. This post is about observation, honesty, and adjustment. It’s about taking those not so great qualities and actively working to become better. So, here we go.
FLAW / STRENGTH # 1
I’m a Communication Studies student, yet I suck at communicating.
I can talk for days, as long as it does not involve me expressing my emotions. I’ve always struggled with expressing my emotions verbally, it’s just easier for me to shut down and not talk. I’ve noticed how unhealthy it is to avoid talking about certain things, so I began to write. I write on paper, what I struggle to say. I may not be able to tell you on the spot, but give me 5 minutes to write it out, you’ll find out everything you need to know.
FLAW / STRENGTH # 2
I don’t adapt well. I stick with what I’m familiar with. This season of my life is extremely hard for me, because of all the changes I have experienced within the past 2 months (blog post coming soon). When I find something that is comfortable and works for me, there is no need to change, even if change is clearly necessary. Since change makes me so uncomfortable, I fight hard! If I think that things should stay the same, then that’s exactly what I fight for. Adapting to change is a part of life, yes, I know, but it’s also a beautiful thing to have a passion for consistency and fight for what you desire.
FLAW / STRENGTH # 3
I’m SELFISH! I put my needs and desires before everyone else’s. If it comes down to me and you, I choose me every time!! Eventually I want to become a more selfless person, but it’s a working progress. Because I have been selfish and invested so much time in myself I have watched my self-esteem and self-worth increase drastically.
There you have it; these qualities have impacted my life in both negative and positive ways. This post was to showcase the beauty in blemishes. Blemishes don’t last forever and neither do these traits.
That 21-year-old, still reconstructing & growing.